If You Want Honesty (Here You Go)

Around six months ago, I looked around at my life and realized many things. I had become much more than I anticipated, yet, had let go of many parts of me that I used to love and that made me–me. I stayed in every night and wouldn’t go out because I felt a...

Ghosts

It’s difficult for me to give up on anything; in fact, a great driving force of mine to never give up and to be persistant in obtaining what I feel that I deserve. But, I’m learning that in the real world, outcomes are not always founded by our own...

I Used to Sing to God

I felt from a young age that God had plans for me.  Before I went to church, before I owned a bible, I used to sing to God while swinging on my swingset. I can recall talking to him as if he were sat right beside me. People said I talked to myself all the time from a...

Hindsight

Hindsight, it’s almost dangerous. When we contemplate it, the rear-view always seems clear, and so it should. I believe that as human beings, we are built to love, strive to understand, and when we cannot we falter within ourselves. Regret, nearly as damaging....

Coincidences are Not Coincidences

A couple of weeks ago, I visited my first homes. I drove by my first childhood home and was almost surprised when I didn’t see what I carried in memory: the droopy clothes line, rusted swing set, dog pen and the holes I dug in the dirt driveway. I realized that...

All I Ever Wanted

I bet it will take most of my life for the pinch to count–you know–that pinch that helps you realize that what you have is real and true. I cannot figure out whether I feel I don’t deserve all that I have, or because I’ve worked so hard for it...